The only thing I can do really is try and tackle things one by one. I'm trying to stay focused and organized, but sometimes the rushing thoughts in my mind get the best of me. That makes me anxious. That keeps me awake at night.
Of course during this busy time the extra challenge for the next 2 weeks through the Whole Life Challenge is to get 7 hours of sleep within each 24 hour period. I've got to figure out a way to get my rest in ... we'll see how it goes.
This morning I woke up to a text message that really altered my plans for the rest of the day. I was annoyed and upset. I almost let it ruin my day. I had to really dig deep to let it go ...
I read that quote and I was ready to start the day.
I had a good breakfast - my coconut cinnamon pancakes with half a banana, a few blackberries, and drizzle of peanut butter.
I then headed out to try something new ... yoga on the beach. I was nervous about going to the class - y'know, doing yoga outdoors in public with a group of people I didn't know at all ... but I thought, what the hell. Why not try it.
I'm really glad I didn't call my friend up to check if she was going this morning (she's the one that told me about the class) because she didn't come to class today. I think if I had known she wasn't coming to class then I wouldn't have tried it.
I went and it was really good. It was totally different. It took some time getting used to the feeling of being outdoors and how the mat felt in the sand on the beach, but as the wind settle down, the sun started to just peek out, and the tide started to come in, I definitely felt better.
The poses were not too complicated and the instructor was really good. There were 7 students - 6 of us all doing this for the first time! After the class she said she liked to try out different yoga positions and one that she wanted us all to try a headstand.
I haven't done a headstand since I was 8 years old!! I was really nervous. Am I going to be able to get my butt up and support my weight? Well, with a bit of assistance, I did :)
After class I rushed to the gym and went to spinning class.
By the time I finished both those workouts and showered and changed, I definitely felt better.
Y'know, today things could have very easily gone another way. I could have just moped around the house, binged on something to try and 'comfort' myself, and just been grumpy all day, but really, what good would that have got me? I'm not totally over what happened, but I do know that I had a good day. I didn't do anything to sabotage all the other efforts I've been making to get healthy.
Today was also a reminder that as good as it feels to sweat it off at the gym and shed those pounds, there are other issues that I need to deal with, some things I need to make peace with. Getting healthy requires putting in the work not just on your body, but also on your mind. Yes, there's much, much more work to be done.