Tuesday, July 3, 2012

One Day to the Next

You know how yesterday I decided to just go with the flow and relax at home with my parents ... well, today was the opposite when it came to relaxation.

I was up and out of the house at 7:45 a.m. getting errands done. I picked my parents up at 9 a.m. and then started off to try and get mom's paperwork sorted out some more ... it was insanely stressful and tedious and we didn't get anything done. In fact, more obstacles were put our way. By the time we got home at 12 p.m. we were all wiped out and demoralized.

I had a quick lunch - my summer salad (it's so filling and refreshing) - made the same for my parents but wrapped them (with love) in a jalapeno-cilantro tortilla to give them a more fulfilling lunch (my dad doesn't think a salad on its own is a proper meal lol). Then we headed out to do one more errand.

By the time I got home, I was so tired and drained ... I really did want to go to the gym, but I was having difficulty finding the strength to actually move. Plus as we were headed home Mom asked me to stay back because she was enjoying the time with me ... dilemma!

I knew that if I didn't go to the gym I'd feel really, really bad. I feel like I'm so behind on my fitness goals for this summer that taking a day off wasn't really an option. So, I told her I'd just do a quick workout and then head home. Of course she was fine with it - though I still felt guilty after I left the house.

I am so behind my C25K routine! I knew that that was what I should be doing at the gym today, but I couldn't bring myself to do it -- I didn't feel like running and of course the idea of the first 3-min straight run was intimidating me beyond belief.

So, I got on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I really did not feel like being there. I was uninterested in walking and even my music wasn't helping me pick up my step. However, as I reached minute 16, I started to feel a bit better. I finished 3 km and then decided, y'know what, I'm going to start Week 3. I can't put it off any longer. If I want to run the 10 km I've got to push through this mental block.

I went upstairs to the women's only section of the gym (I like the privacy when I'm running because I feel so self-conscious and unsure about my running) and started.

It went fine. The most difficult thing for me to deal with was the constant mental struggle - battling the 'you can do this' and 'OMG I want to stop' voices.

I wish my mind would just shut up!


I did it! It went well. I didn't feel terribly winded or anything. I just followed the program and got it done. Gosh - I can be such a drama queen! I hope I don't freak myself out when it comes to doing Day 2! {Full C25K progress reports here}


  1. Sadly, the voices never really stop - but you get better at ignoring them and telling them to bugger off!

    Awesome workout, and great job sticking with it!

    1. Thanks Kris! I do hope I can at least gain more control of them!

  2. Isn't it funny how the "nicer" they are, the more guilty you feel! Good job starting in on the next phase of your running!

    1. I know!! Glad I made it to the gym though - it's a different type of satisfaction!

  3. The mental struggle of running is one of the reasons why I love running so much. It's one of the only forms of exercises that I have found that I have to totally tap into my inner strength & motivate myself. At the end of the day, no one really cares if you stop & walk, go slow, don't meet your running goals etc. It's all on YOU. So when you do it it's really the best feeling because no one else did it. JUST YOU.

    Some runs are GREAT, most are just okay, and some totally suck. But the feeling at the end is the same and that is one of totall bad assery. So keep it up!!! You're doing awesome and will totally meet all of your fitness goals.

    1. You're so right! I can be on the cross-trainer for 1 1/2 hours but I still don't feel as good as I do when I run, even if it is just for 2 minutes because I know that running so much more difficult for me. It really does make me draw on some inner strength to push that extra bit further.

      Thanks for the encouragement :)


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