Indecisiveness

It's amazing how quickly I fall back into the trap of struggling to make decisions when it comes to my workout routine. I wish I could just go with the flow, and at the very least, trust myself and stick to the plan ... but no. I had already intended on taking today off from the gym. I know yesterday's workout wasn't a big one or anything, but I knew that I would need to ease into it ... however, I was still faced with the dilemma, should I go to the gym or not? Why is it that I can't just let it go and move forward - stick to the plan; stop questioning myself?! This mental game of ping pong is absolutely exhausting.

The day overall seemed to be a constant challenge. I did not feel like going to work at all, but of course I went. After work I went to the Avenues - I decided to park at the furthest end (at IKEA) and then walk over to the other end (Dean and Deluca) and work my way back down. Before I starting I thought I'd sit down, have a coffee, and read for an hour. It wasn't until after I was getting ready to go that I realized I didn't have my wallet! I was so embarrassed! I realized that my wallet was still in my gym bag from yesterday! Luckily I had some money in my car, so I told the waiter and he assured me it was fine, but to me, it wasn't fine at all!! All of a sudden, my leisurely morning consisted of me booking it from D&D all the way back to IKEA and then back again ... I just wanted to get the whole ordeal over and done with so I RUSHED - I tell you, I put more into that walk than I did on the treadmill yesterday. By the time I got back to my car, I was exhausted - and not comfortable at all. I definitely realized (again) that even though I can move faster, I shouldn't!

So, even though I didn't go to the gym and was planning on resting, I ended up barely resting throughout the whole day. I was hosting my annual Secret Santa dinner, which meant that there was a lot of prep to do ... I think a lot of people out there underestimate how much work goes into taking care of the house and preparing for dinner parties. Anyway, by the end of the night, I was absolutely knackered ... hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to stick to my plan and move forward. There's so much to do over the next month, I don't have time to deal with all this indecisiveness!