1) Life is too short. I don't want to feel deprived.
2) If I deprive myself of it, I'll crave it, and then I'll binge.
I was thinking about the two words - deprivation and moderation - earlier today. Some meanings of deprived were: lacking the necessities of life and the condition of being without, especially of economic or social necessities.
Moderation came up as the avoidance of extremes of excesses; being within reasonable limits.
For me, when I read the definition of moderation, I think it makes sense. Just have a little; balance it all out and everything will be fine.
I tried it. It didn't work. I thought it was working, but it really wasn't. Part of it was because my concept of what was moderate was so skewed. I was obviously eating a lot because I was gaining weight. Moderation for me would have been one (or two) slices of something instead of three.
That's not moderation. That's still too much -- it's still nearing excess. In the scheme of it all, and given my ultimate goal of wanting to lose weight, even one slice of certain somethings would be too much. As an overweight person, obviously my perception of what is moderate isn't right.
I realized that the big changes I wanted to see would only happen if I made big changes in the way I ate and exercised.
The changes didn't all come at once. I am always trying to be within reasonable limits, and soon my craving for something sweet after dinner went from a big brownie, to a small slice of cake, to half a bar of chocolate, down to an After 8 after dinner mint.
I didn't think that was too bad ... however, even with my nightly 40-calorie After 8 dinner mint I realized that some of my friends were having dessert once a week ... even once a month. How's that for a different perspective of what moderation is? See, it's all about perspective, and I think for me, until I recognized the folly in my perspective and came up with a strategy to really have control over my eating habits - long term, not temporary - I would not see the changes that I wanted to see.
I have to wonder what would have happened if I just stopped all together. Would I have felt deprived?
The definitions of deprivation really have to do with dealing with not having something essential. It is obvious that having something sweet is not essential to live. I don't think I ever felt like not having something would make me feel deprived. I wanted to eat what I wanted to eat simply because I wanted to eat it! There was no thought of future consequences. If I was really conscientious about how I would feel in the future, wouldn't my thoughts have turned to how difficult it would be to burn off those calories in that pizza, cake, ice cream, etc. instead of I may want to eat it later ... does that make sense?
Again, it's about perspective. This quote really struck me when I saw it:
I really want to be healthy, strong, energetic, and thin! If that's really what I want most, then I have to behave like it.
I'm convinced that the idea of deprivation, when it comes to wanting to eat food, is an illusion. It's an excuse for not wanting to try harder. I don't want to make that excuse for myself anymore. Participating in this Whole Life Challenge has really shaken my perspective. I'm on Day 5 of no dairy, no grains, no starch, no sugar, no preservatives --- I have to say, I don't feel deprived at all.
My mornings of yoga are going great! I'm really enjoying that 15 minutes of calm, peace, and quiet -- helps me get center for my day before I start rushing around like a mad woman!
I didn't do abs this morning, but I will do them tomorrow for sure.
Good CrossFit session today -
I worked on my pull-ups (still struggling, but maybe making a tiny, tiny, tiny bit of progress) and I tried ring dips (with a band) for the first time. Man I need to work on my upper body strength!!
For weights I did dynamic sumo deadlifts (70 kg) and dynamic box squats (40 kg).
Our WOD was
120 skips (or 60 double unders, but I'm not at that level yet!)
50 hand-release push ups
40 knees to elbows (hanging from the bar)
30 push presses (20 kg)
20 pull ups (did the best I could with the band)
10 cleans (20 kg)
Day 5 of the Whole Life Challenge complete and I'm doing great (my progress info here)!