Saturday, May 12, 2012

Unwinding

It all still hasn't hit me yet but I guess that's normal since it is an almost 5-year chapter of my life that has come to an end. The whole experience was surreal and the whole 3-hour ordeal was over in what felt like 15 minutes. I was so pleased and proud of my their response to my writing and they way I handled their grilling (their terminology). I feel like most of the past 5 years has been spent doubting my capabilities and feeling like I wasn't smart enough to pull this off. Having two experts in the field praise me so highly has given me a much needed boost and I can finally say that I do feel proud. I did earn this.

This feeling reminds me of the song by Kate Earl - Learning to Fly.
I've always wanted to reach a moment where I could feel this type of pride. I am so thankful for how it has all gone. I am so thankful that I feel I have earned this moment.

Learning to Fly - Kate Earl

I've made mistakes 
But I won't be ashamed 
It feels like fate is lifting me 
I can't seem to keep my feet on the ground 
I no longer hide 
So I let the sun wash over me 
Cause there's no darkness left to hold me down 
And I feel it's light 
And I found the spark that was missing from my life. 


I've earned these wings I was not born with them 
And it's no accident 
How I walked through the rain and the fire 
Cause it taught me how to love 
It taught me how to fight 
And finally I'm learning to fly 

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Listen to it if you get the chance. Off to the gym this morning for a final workout before leaving Canterbury. I'll be in London for a mega-shopping spree, so that will count as both my cardio and weight lifting for the next two days :)

8 comments:

  1. You should be proud, because you have made a huge accomplishment here! YOU did this - it was ALL YOU! :D

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    1. Thanks Maren! I can truly say that I worked HARD for this. It's a wonderful sense of achievement.

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  2. Good song and good for you on a job well done. Go ahead and fly. :)

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    1. The song really moved me - I'm ready to fly! :)

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  3. I wish I could shake hands with your--or hug--and let that empowerment seep right into me. I really really loved this post. What an incredible accomplishment.

    :-) Marion

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    1. Thank you. I felt like the defense wasn't just about the thesis but also about who I was and what the entire process and product represented. It was just what I needed.

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  4. "I've earned these wings - I was not born with them." Love that line!

    Heartfelt congratulations to you!!

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    1. That's the line that hooked me. When I first heard the song I thought to myself - I really WANT this to be my theme song. I'm happy to say that it now is :)
      Thanks so much!!

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