Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Is This Me?

Over the past 12 days I've had 7 different people come up to me or contact me asking me what I was doing to lose weight. They wanted to know exactly what I was eating and how I have been managing to lose weight. They wanted advice. They asked if I would be willing to sit down and talk with them to come up with a food plan and understand how to exercise.

Today when one more person approached me, I had a minor panic attack. It's one thing when you kind of casually, in passing, tell people what you're doing (I eat right and I exercise), but it's another when they are looking at you and asking for your advice.

I kinda freaked out a little.

I knew that I had been changing, but it didn't fully strike me that my changes were being noticed. I mean, yes, people have commented, but again - I took them more as comments made in passing.

These people, however, were different. They saw me differently. As one person put in her email to me: 'You're living the dream.' -- I was really taken aback by that.

I don't know how to exactly explain why I panicked. Why didn't I just take it as a compliment and move forward with it? I guess it's because even though I'm heading towards where I want to be and how I want to be seen, I didn't realize that perhaps some people already see me as reaching a goal ... in some ways reaching the goal that they have for themselves.

It's been strange. While I do recognize that I have accomplished a lot, I also know that I have further to go. Others, however, have seen the change. I guess dropping 30kg means that you can't hide the change anymore, not that I want to hide it in the first place. I guess it just becomes real.

It actually took me quite some time to calm down. I guess I felt overwhelmed all of a sudden with people pretty much willing to put their lives in my hands and help them change, especially given that so many people approached me in such a short time span.

Deep breath. Refocus. Think sensibly.

There is no need to feel overwhelmed. This is what I want. I've been studying to become a Fitness Nutrition Specialist because I want to be able to help others. I am happy that I was able to create a plan, stick to it, and achieve results. Now I'm working towards doing that for others.

I'm not 100% sure why I panicked. I think it's kinda because I feel like my end goal is really close. I am worried that I might have a setback (though I know I have the tools to push through the setback). I am eager to speed up the process, but I know that I need to just be patient and consistent with my choices and my actions. It's a lot to take in. Perhaps I'm overwhelmed by the excitement of it all, because it really is exciting ... I'm finally becoming the person that I've always wanted to be. So I guess, it really is me.


  1. That's a nice story!

    Tell them that the most important thing is that they must really want to lose weight!

    After they reach that place, how you did it is fine.

  2. It's awesome that you have lost so much weight and that people are coming to you for help/advice. Soon you will be certified to do just that!

    I understand the panic feeling you expereinced. I feel the same way since my coaches have asked me if I was interested in becoming a coach. I have felt scared, overwhelmed and freaked out. I think that is because now we really have to walk the walk. I mean, I know we are, but once we are in these positions, there is NO going back. That's it. It's life. It's who we are. People we never thought we would be. Scary shit, yo.

  3. Hi A! Well, it might not have caught up with you in your mind. I worked out hard in the gym for over 2 years before I even considered myself "athletic." You know the facts about yourself, and yet, something is still shocked. I understand that. I've been through that.

    Further, everyday still counts. What exactly is "living the dream?" We're never done. The very things that we do to get where we are is what other people refuse to do. Just when we feel somewhat comfortable or confident, we're not the next day. And we just keep going, despite doubts. :D

    :-) Marion

  4. It is you. You are inspirational and quite amazing.

    You rock.

  5. Hi this is Nicole at Colie’s Kitchen. We are doing a 100 day weight loss challenge starting Monday April 8th. If you are interested in participating we would love to have you join us!! http://www.colieskitchen.com/2013/04/is-anyone-interested-in-weight-loss.html

  6. Oh I've been through this many times too - and it's hard! How do you explain to them that 1) they have to really, really want it; and 2) they have to change everything? You didn't do this over night - neither did I. But most people don't understand that, they want simple answers - and I wonder if that's why you panicked a little? Because you know there is no easy answer?

    Good luck; I know why they are asking for your advice, you're amazing!!

  7. So often people think that you might have a magic, easy way that you got to where you are. When you say the same old thing that you eat right and exercise, they tune out and say it is too hard. Maybe some of them will actually listen and take it to heart. That would be awesome. :)


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