Monday, September 5, 2011
Coming up with a Plan
Last night was a bad night. I could't get to sleep. I tossed and turned for hours - tried listening to relaxing music, reading, watching a bit of TV, and just meditating - nothing worked. I know what it is ... the stomach cramps, stiff neck and shoulders plus the restlessness are the hallmark signs of stress for me. I need to figure out how to handle this before it gets too out of control - I can't afford to waste time and be distracted.
I've been told time and time again that stress and lack of sleep have really negative effects in terms of weight loss ... but it's not just weight loss that I'm concerned about. It's just my overall feeling of healthiness - which is not something I'm feeling at the moment. It's moments like these when I realize how losing weight/being healthy are so much more than just exercise and eating right. Those two factors are definitely important, but what also has to happen is a calm and centered mind and a positive attitude.
I am not feeling calm and centered and while I am trying to be positive, the feelings of major panic are dominating any optimism that I may be feeling.
I just have to figure out how I am going to get through the next few weeks. Finishing up my PhD is a MAJOR task and it's something that I need to do by the end of this month - that's got to be my top priority.
Having that as my main priority doesn't mean that everything else has to fall to pieces. I know that I can still exercise and I can still eat healthy - I just have to be practical about it ... and I think I should give myself a little slack. If I don't workout one day, that's ok ... right? Right?
See, althought I'm saying these words I don't entirely believe myself. For me, the more stressed I get the more I try to control things ... which means a to-the-minute schedule, crazy intense workouts to relieve stress, minimal sleep to maximize my time at my desk, and food ... well, I don't resort to stuffing myself with junk food ... but the whole nutrition aspect (which you know is time consuming) kind of suffers.
It all sounds terrible, doesn't it? I know that I just need to balance everything - keep my fridge stocked with healthy foods, figure out a workout plan that keeps me satisfied but doesn't interfere with my study time, and get enough rest at night.
I know these things. I just don't know if I can do them or how to do them. I'm really concerned ... and that freaks me out even more because I don't have time to be concerned about these things ... but I am. Does that make sense? Can you see the stress that I'm going through? Aaarrgghhh!!!
Anybody got any advice/suggestions?