Friday, January 4, 2013

Feeling like a total Loser

Last night I felt like I was getting a bit of a cough. This morning there was no doubt that I had some sort of a cold ... and by mid-morning it was completely clear that my bronchitis was back.

Seriously? What is going on?

I spent a lot of time moping and crying about being such a loser - Here we are in the new year. It's Day 4 and I've already got a string of excuses for not being able to do all that I want - sore arm/cough - Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Cranky is an understatement of a description of how I feel.

I cried a lot this afternoon. I know it doesn't achieve anything, but it was the only way I could release some of my frustration.

I'm on a roll. I don't want to stop now - for any reason.

D was great in trying to keep me calm but I'm stubborn and was pretty adamant about remaining cranky. Still, I couldn't help but agree with some of the things he said.

I think the biggest help was realizing that I wasn't 'starting over.' It's not like I fell off the wagon, gained  a lot of weight at the end of the year, and was dusting off my gym membership card.

I'm continuing what I started last year. Today is not the beginning of a new year with a new plan with a new attitude. Today is day 369, and on day 369 I happen to be ill and need to take a break.

It makes sense to me, but I'm still cranky and grumpy about it.

It's only 2 p.m. I don't know what I'm going to do today. Ideally I would be doing 60 burpees (ok, did I just use ideally and burpees in the same sentence?) and going to CrossFit.

Right now my reality calls for a ton of water, Kleenex, my inhaler, and my bed.

I feel like a total loser. Bah.

16 comments:

  1. I can totally related to how you feel, all of the crankiness and feelings of being a loser!! Your points about not falling off the wagon are so valid though and I'll have to remember that too - you have cheered me! thank you. I hope you feel better x x

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  2. I had that cold/flu during Christmas week, so I relate. I didn't go to gym that week, but it was really pointless.

    Usually when I'm sick, I lay in bed during gym time and read fitness books. I have a huge pile of them. I read about fitness strategy, technique, form, and motivation. I look for some new exercises to do when I get well. It makes me feel like I'm not being a fitness loser even when walking around the house feels so exhausting.

    This cold doesn't last. I'm back to my normal peppy self, and you soon will be too.

    :-) Marion

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  3. your not a loser soemtimes our bodies just need a rest
    a day or too off wontmake u lose all the muscle you have gained and health u have gained from this journey .....keep you head up ....hope you feel better soon

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  4. It SUCKS to be sick and in pain - but your body is TELLING you something! Maybe you need to rest a little - and that's OK! Do something that will get blood pumping but not too intense and take some time to care for yourself. You are AMAZING and I totally admire you! LOSER should NOT be part of your vocabulary!!!

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  5. I'm so sorry that you are sick but you are right - it's just a minor bump in the road - not a permanent thing. I hope you feel better soon.

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  6. It's so frustrating when you want to do something and can't. But no way are you a loser! Some rest and good clean food and you'll soon be back in action :)

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  7. Take care of yourself first. I've been sick this week too and I tried to push it with exercise and now I feel worse again. Our bodies need to heal.

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  8. You are so NOT a loser. Get well soon. :)

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  9. Get some rest & know that this too shall pass....

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  10. Ugh! So sorry you're sick, but D is right, and taking 1 day to rest and recover will pay off so much in the long run! Get better soon...

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  11. Illness is so very frustrating, but bronchitis isn't something you can just kinda "work through," like a head cold or ear infection. You just gotta rest, eat right (if less), drink drink drink water, hot tea, clear broth (low sodium!) and maybe just stretch or get a special someone to give you back rubs. :) I do hope you recover soon; take care of yourself, PP!

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  12. I hope you feel better soon!

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  13. It sucks, but it will pass. And then you'll just pick up and carry on. :D

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  15. I hope you are feeling better! I can relate to this post soooo much, I've been Hang in there, 2013 is going to be a great year!

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  16. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. I hope you're better soon.

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