Monday, August 15, 2011
FMM - Driving Force
I love this week's FMM question - What is the driving force behind your weight loss?
I have constantly been going back and forth between keeping my future goals in mind and making sure to move past the struggles and fears of the past ... so what is it that keeps me moving forward? Sometimes I honestly don't know how I make it to the gym to workout - because when i look at the scale I'm still unsatisfied ... when I look in the mirror I still don't like what I see ... when I reflect on all the work I've put in I just don't feel like the results = the effort ... and yet I still go ...
Part of it is sheer bloody determination. I will get this right. I will lose the weight and reach my goals ... I'd love to say that the number one reason is my health (especially with a family history of diabetes) ... but really, it's just so that I feel good about myself. Having that added mental weight and strain just makes everything that much more difficult.
I know not everybody gets it, and I'd say they're lucky that this is not something they need to worry about ... the bottom line is, it's an issue that is real for me and something that I need to deal with, regardless of what anybody else says.
So, to more clearly answer the question ...
The driving force behind my weight loss is my desire to feel better about myself ... followed by the desire to lead a healthy and active life.
I'm definitely making progress in terms of leading a healthy and active life ... I just can't wait for everything else to fall into place!