Sunday, March 11, 2012

Didn't Plan On It

It's 6:55 p.m. and I'm starving. I'm crazy starving.

About half an hour ago I had a banana and half a cup of low fat organic yogurt.

I'll eat dinner in about half an hour, but I have no idea what to eat. There are lots of options, but today is one of those days when I just don't feel like making a thing. I don't feel like chopping the vegetables. I don't feel like cooking fish. I don't even feel like opening a can of something. I just want to be full and done with it. This is what happens when I don't plan properly.

Worst of all, I'm cranky.

I know I should be in the kitchen chopping some of those vegetables and preparing a tasty, nutritious meal, but for once I just want to take the easy way out and have someone already prepare it for me ... fat chance of that happening.


Although my leg isn't feeling 100% better, I went to the gym this morning and did 8.5 km on the cross-trainer (1 hr 5 min). I'd love to believe the calorie burn stated on the machine (750 calories) but I doubt I burned that much. In any case, I exercised, and though there were some points when my leg felt a bit strained, I felt good overall. After the workout I did my physio which also helped with my thigh muscle strain ... and then spent a good 10-15 minutes doing some deep stretching -- definitely felt good.

After writing yesterday's post about not having gotten this weight loss thing right yet, I felt quite down. I work hard. I go to the gym regularly. I am quite disciplined ... yet I am still overweight. Something must be wrong. I know part of it is the hormone/fibroid problem ... but it's only part of it. I think that is something that may keep me from losing the last 10 lbs, but what about the 50 lbs before that? No, that's entirely up to me. So what is it?

I look back at what I wrote and realize that I have said "quite" disciplined. Perhaps "quite" is not good enough. I need to change that to 'very' disciplined. If I am going to see the changes that I want, then I'm going to have to really take things up a notch.

With that in mind, I went back to the gym this afternoon for another 45 minutes of cardio. I didn't kill myself or overdo it. I just walked for 45 minutes at a decent pace and at a 2% incline.

When I was at my lowest weight (a year and a half ago) I did it through watching what I ate ... but more than that, I was spending 3-5 hours at the gym on a daily basis. Does that sound insane? Yes. Did it work? Yes.

For the past year I have been watching what I've been eating - averaging about 1400 calories a day - and exercising regularly - I'd say averaging 1 1/2 hours 5 days a week. Any progress? Some. More like shift in weight/body shape - than loss of weight. Is that ok? Yes to a point ... now I've got to move on.

So, just over 2.5 hours of exercise today and about 900 calories consumed so far ... now I've got to figure out a fulfilling, tasty 400 calorie dinner. I guess it's time to go chop some of those vegetables!


  1. Hi PlumPetals! Well, I'm also often unmotivated to chop up vegetables. My lazy old self has to chop up a bunch at a time, while cooking up a soup and boiling eggs for the next few days, or I'd never eat anything healthy. I'm lucky if I have 2 hours of cooking motivation per week!

    Regarding thigh soreness, be kind to yourself and listen what Dr. Thigh tells you to do. :D

    I'm *never* satisfied with my weight, all of that portion of your post is what's on my mind for myself! The only thing I've learned at all about watching calories is when I tweak too hard, all hell (binge-wise) breaks loose.

    :-) Marion

    1. I think I'm going to have to also chop up a bunch of veggies ahead of time!

      As for the calorie restriction --> binge eating ... it's definitely a balance that needs to be struck. Gotta eat enough to avoid those cravings, but also gotta make sure I don't eat too much so that I can actually drop some weight! :)


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